WOW!!!!

Hi,

I have done the most amazing things in the past two days you wouldn't

believe it!!!

First of all I made the principal horn of the Finnish Radio Symphony

Orchestra jump out of his skin repeating 'that's amazing! I don't believe

it!' I had a lesson with him, and he said something that improved my

playing on the spot, it was something to do with the air flow. He jumped

up and down and was like I don't believe it!

Then today, I played the Strauss Horn Concerto in front of an orchestra!!

We are playing it in the Helsinki University orchestra, the real soloist

wasn't there today so I step in and said I could play it. And I DID!!!!

You wouldn't believe it was me! I can't really say for my self that it

sounded awsome, but I know it FELT awsome, my notes were strong and

confident and it just felt sooooo goood!!! It was incredible!

It was a lot of hard work, I was 'puffing' at the end of each movement but

it was good puffing from a good kind of exhaustion. Yeah I missed notes

and Im not perfect but Im on my own journey and Im getting closer and

closer every day to being a master on my instrument. You know there were

times I missed notes and felt my body getting tense and I continued to

miss the notes. I was aweare of this happening and I was able to calm my

self down while playing and relax back into the music and back to note

missing notes and playing with expression and enjoyment. It was honestly

the greatest experience ever! I am so happy, but I so deeply miss home.