Back in Helsinki

The land is frozen the branches on the trees look like ice. There are piles of snow everywhere and nothing is left uncovered by snow. I can't be bothered moving. School has started again. but I don't have any classes till Friday and today is Tuesday. Which is nice. I can't be bothered getting dressed and leaving my room. But I have no food, all I have is chocolate and I can't eat that all day. Where has my motivation gone? Where has my energy gone? I have so much work to do before school starts for real next week. I have to be good and learn and find my motivation to learn again. But I can't be bothered moving.

My room is a messand it's really hot and stuffy in here. I should go and get some fresh air, but I don't want to get dressed.

Thinking of all of you in Australia (Joan in Canada) helps me to find motivation to clean my room. When that is clean maybe I can find the courage to get dressed. Then maybe I will be strong enough to through my horn on my back and leave my room.

I miss home soooooooooooo MUCH!!!! I am sick of not understanding the language and not being able to speak. My feet hurt in my shoes from all the walking Ive done but they are special shoes I bought for the snow and I don't want to buy more coz I don't want to spend money coz I don't really have all that much.

If you are reading this post, leave a comment for me eithere here or on facebook. I'd like to know who is reading it. If anyone at all.

Thanks